Still Alive

So we made it through Christmas, and we are still alive. I could have sworn to you that my heart would be breaking sooooo much that I would have died sometime during the Christmas celebrations....but we survived.

Christmas wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be...I had NO expectations this year and it worked out great. I wasn't stressed and I didn't give a shit about much more than my hubby and my thoughts of my baby...and everyone else was just as cool about it as I was! We are so fortunate to have such wonderful family and friends. When I told them we weren't celebrating, no one gave us crap and tried to tell us how we should, and I had expected this out of everyone, but I was pleasantly surprised. I did promise everyone though that next year I would try a little harder to be more in the spirit, and I hope I am, but to be honest, not being all stressed out and worried like I usually am was kind of nice. I have no decorations to take back down and drag down stairs, didn't make a shitload of sweets to try to get rid of and so on.....

I am excited for 2009 to be over....DH did reel me back in though, he told me as bad as this year was, we are lucky and it could have been worse. And he was right, as usual....see losing Elliot was just the last of bad things to happen....We had a house fire in January and had to redo our entire kitchen from the floor up and re carpet our house....DH's niece who is 17 and lived with us for a year moved out, and leading up to that move out, was not pretty whatsoever....taking care of someone else's teen, not an easy job! So even though it was bad, DH is right, it could always be worse...

Sorry for the rambling....I haven't written for a while and needed to....

Peace to everyone and here's to a GREAT 2010 for EACH AND EVERYONE of us!!

Brandy