Lighting the Night

So yesterday was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day, and I have to admit, I lit my candles late....Does that make me a bad mom? It was all kind of surreal. I went to Wally World to buy the Candles. One for Elliot, One for Grayson and one for all of the other Angel Babies out there. It made me sad, picking out candles for dead babies! MORBID!!!!

I paid the funeral hom today and was paying hospital bills and it just makes me sick. Paying for my sons funeral, like making any other transaction, just sickening.

Today isn't such a bad day though, I've had worse. I went to the eye doctor this morning and got new contacts and glasses....and I've learned my cornia's are thick, whatever that means.

And I'm freakin out a little though, my stomach has been upset for a few days and I don't trust my body!! How sad is that?? I don't trust my body! What do I mean by that? Well, I am afraid that I think is insignificant will be BIG!
I'm afraid that there is something going on that I am not aware of, like the GBS.

I cannot wait to go to the specialist, I have a ton of questions. Mom is going with and she will think of a bazillion questions that I won't!

I am praying for Alicia and Brice. She is not feeling well and they are on a big rollercoaster right now. I pray God gives her the strength to get better and keep up her spirits.

I hope everyone has a good weekend!