Tuesday, June 1, 2010


Today is day 45 of my cycle, it has never been this long. BFN HPT's every time and a BFN Blood Serum test. So why does everything have to be so complicated? Why can't I just catch a break for once? I know most of you have been in this boat and asked the same questions...
So now I am freaking out that there is seriously something wrong with me...Like I said, I have never went this long before, other than being pregnant.
How many times can I go through this...I blame myself really, I get all excited, and for what, just to be let down again. We even stopped TTC this last month because I wanted to not stress out so much....
All I want is to complete my family...Is that really so much to ask for?
How many times can my heart be broken before there are no pieces left to put it back together...
So now I get to play the waiting game to see what the hell is wrong now....
I have no words for the sadness I feel at this very moment in my life....


  1. Maybe it's just a weird cycle? I had that once where I pretty much skipped a month.

  2. I hope so...and there is always next month, right? Thanks Holly!

  3. So sorry you're in such a sad place right now. I'm here with you asking the very same questions!

  4. I'm sorry! I don't know what to say, but I hope that it gets back to normal ASAP. ((hugs)) Thinking of you

  5. Sorry you are having to deal with that. Sending you positive thoughts that things go better soon!

  6. I'm sorry. I hope you do get that break. Thinking of you. (((Hugs)))