tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post1372700307895578120..comments2023-03-24T05:55:40.206-04:00Comments on ForeverElliotsMommy: Obsession and WonderingForeverElliot'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06415623315190480978noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-19425131093175284572010-01-08T22:01:53.074-05:002010-01-08T22:01:53.074-05:00Yes, totally, with the memories. Some days I want...Yes, totally, with the memories. Some days I want to forget everything because of the pain-if I don't remember, it can't have happened. But that's not too often, and usually I struggle to remember any little thing about them-and wish that I had had even an hour longer to get even more memories.<br /><br />I totally understand the obsessing, too, and we all do it-it is not fun while it's happening, but we all do it.<br /><br />Love to you!<br />p.s. thanks for the award!!!!! I will be posting it soon :)Christyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01498901545149667223noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-18963535777410468732010-01-08T19:01:16.205-05:002010-01-08T19:01:16.205-05:00I hope this makes sense, but this is what I think:...I hope this makes sense, but this is what I think: I think sometimes our memories are fogged because if we remembered every detail we would remember the pain and hurtful memories just as much as the good memories. I think foggy memories are our subconcious' way of coping, because I know if remembered what the pain felt like to have my babies sick and die(I still do from time to time)I would not be able to cope.. I hope that made sense??Abbyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13288304980939842986noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-86276653521761525492010-01-08T17:23:43.624-05:002010-01-08T17:23:43.624-05:00I remember waking up one morning in tears because ...I remember waking up one morning in tears because I felt like I was forgetting. Like I was looking through fogged glass. Unfortunately I think it's because our brains are just that way, imperfect and mortal. Memories degrade over time, and the memeories of our babies are not immune.<br /><br />But you won't ever completely forget. (hugs)Brittaniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09163482845611038936noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-43376637770347290412010-01-08T16:28:01.370-05:002010-01-08T16:28:01.370-05:00I don't think you're crazy at all. I'...I don't think you're crazy at all. I'm sure if I could get pregnant again, I would be doing all those things too. I hope this year is kinder and gentler on you and that you get your rainbow baby. Sending you hugsmargarethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16494588299838654564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-10051284359495231832010-01-08T16:12:11.205-05:002010-01-08T16:12:11.205-05:00The intricate details do fade in time, unfortunate...The intricate details do fade in time, unfortunately. :( I think that loss and such is always around us but we don't notice it really until we experience it ourselves. Then our eyes are opened wide.Hollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15431384515813384025noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-51856955172502750362010-01-08T15:16:51.802-05:002010-01-08T15:16:51.802-05:00Chin up, my friend. I am starting to feel the bit...Chin up, my friend. I am starting to feel the bite of the obsession bug. I have done two HPT in the last week, even though I KNOW that there will only be 1 line. And I don't really want to be pregnant this month anyway, but once it bites, it's all over. :-)<br /><br />I know (pretty well) 3 other families who are baby loss families. One lost an anencephaly baby, one lost a preemie after 6 weeks in the NICU, and one was stillbirth of a 40 weeker. I realized within the first two or three weeks that it really does happen a lot more than anyone realizes, but it is such taboo that no one wants to talk about it. <br /><br />I realized the other day that I am suddenly not counting weeks anymore. The last week I can remember marking was 22 weeks. I was a little sad when I realized it, and I briefly felt like I had let her down a little bit, but I was able to rationalize it and I am feeling a little better about it now. I prefer to think that I am settling into the new shoes of baby loss rather than just outright forgetting...<br /><br />Hugs...Susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14814373587860281157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-77695429967378026212010-01-08T13:04:49.872-05:002010-01-08T13:04:49.872-05:00Trying so hard to not think about it and hubby wan...Trying so hard to not think about it and hubby wants to use bc so that I don't get disappointed. I guess I'm hoping by the grace of God I will wake up one day, PREGNANT.<br /><br />I know I am nuts, just a dream.<br /><br />I hope 2010 we will all get our little babies.<br /><br />SalmaThe Sole Sisters Collectivehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07246151584628381510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-14182949815748937142010-01-08T12:55:04.845-05:002010-01-08T12:55:04.845-05:00I can certainly relate to the pregnancy obsession....I can certainly relate to the pregnancy obsession. It can feel like a long roller coaster. Hang on!<br /><br />I hear you too on the body issues, and am trying to let go of that.CeCehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07810772967886741377noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-21763697779179979322010-01-08T12:16:01.415-05:002010-01-08T12:16:01.415-05:00I too was OBSESSED with getting pregnant and when ...I too was OBSESSED with getting pregnant and when I did I kept peeing on sticks to make sure I was still preg... You know what can happen and that fear is instilled in you, at least it is me. I hope that you peeing will be what you want to see very soon!!! If you have some wonders I compared my sticks (they were ever so fait) to the picts on peeonasstick.com<br /><br />NicolleChristmas with Kaseyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04046209441729981789noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-36137085213935712282010-01-08T11:04:38.548-05:002010-01-08T11:04:38.548-05:00I was obsessed with getting pregnant again too. Fo...I was obsessed with getting pregnant again too. For me it was the need to have a second chance. My obsession was all I thought about. Those months were LONG and emotional. So I think you are normal for obsessing and feeling like your body failed you. I feel the same way - and even though my body is doing better this time around - now I have GD and anther thing to worry about popping up in a few years. I never knew being pregnant would wreck havoc on my body, blood pressures and blood sugars too :(<br /><br />I think I retain the bad news that before I let go. Like everyone usually ignores the painful stuff like losses and avoids talking about it but everyone talks about the good so much. I am sorry to admit I think I used to be oblivious to the pain of others - in my head for a second then forgotten. <br /><br />I will end the longest comment ever now - but know you are not alone and my thoughts are with you!jamiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13384541610300809237noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999892652000718566.post-50755469476708570302010-01-08T10:58:00.608-05:002010-01-08T10:58:00.608-05:00"Does anyone else ever feel like their memori..."Does anyone else ever feel like their memories are fading? I want so bad to hold onto them so much, but feel like my mind is failing me...Like I can't remember the small details I used or they are more foggy than they used to be...and this is sooooo upsetting."<br /><br />THIS. I could have written this myself. I have been thinking, discussing, and worrying about this 300%.<br /><br />And I am also addicted to peeing on things! Damn OPKS that dont work for me. Now I have it in my head that I am not ovulating. I swear being under this dead baby cloud does crazy things to your mind.Ashley Dhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02156590541468931197noreply@blogger.com